Chapter 1: Bill’s Story
P1
- L18-19: Visiting Winchester Cathedral during the war, Bill’s attention is “caught by a doggerel on an old tombstone” whose last line reads “Whether he dieth by musket / Or by pot.” What is the meaning of “pot” here? – A container of alcoholic drink.
P2
- L1: Bill recounts he “took a night law course.” What school did he attend? – Brooklyn Law School.
P3
- L4: “. . . we once worked on a farm . . . “When and where was this? – Bill and Lois worked at the Goldfoot Dairy Farm in Scotia, N.Y. (near Schenectady) from mid-April to mid-May 1925.
P4
- L7: “Abruptly in October 1929 hell broke loose on the New Stock Exchange.” What is the historical reference here? – The stock market crash which ushered in the Great Depression.
- L20: “I telephoned a friend in Montreal.” Who was this? – Richard O. Johnson (“Dick”), of Greenshields & Co., a brokerage firm.
- L23-24: “I felt like Napoleon returning from Elba. No St. Helena for me!” What is the import of this historical allusion? – Napoleon returned from his exile in Elba and marched triumphantly on Paris. But following his defeat at Waterloo, he was exiled again, this time to St. Helena, where he died in ignominy. Inebriated with “the old determination to win,” Bill was cocksure he would snatch victory from the jaws of defeat in the 1929 stock market crash.
- L27: "We went to live with my wife's parents." What are the names of Lois' parents? – Clark Burnham of PA (lawyer, gynecologist, and Swedenborgian minister), and Matilda Hoyt.
- L31-32: “My wife began to work in a department store.” – Where was this? – At Macy’s.
P7
- L6-7: Two people were instrumental in Bill’s first hospitalization for alcoholism: his “brother-in-law,” a physician, and Bill’s own mother. What is the latter’s name? – Emily Griffith Wilson
- What is the name of the physician, and what other role did he play in AA? – Doctor Leonard V. Strong, Jr., who twice paid for Bill's hospitalization. He was one of the first members of the AA board of trustees, a position he held from 1939 to 1954.
- L7-8: What is the name of the “nationally-known hospital” Bill was placed in, and where is it located? – Charles B. Towns Hospital on Central Park West, NYC.
- L9-11: What did the “bella-donna treatment” consist of? – The use of an extract from an herb also known as “Deadly Nightshade;” referred to also as “purge and puke.”
- L11-12: Who was the “kind doctor” that Bill met? – Dr. William Duncan Silkworth, chief physician and psychologist at Towns.
- What section of the Big Book did he write? – “The Doctor’s Opinion.”
- L13-14: The doctor explained to Bill that “though certainly selfish and foolish,” he “had been seriously ill, bodily and mentally.” These words reflect a new understanding of alcoholism that AA would come to adopt. What understanding is this? – That alcoholism is not a problem of moral failure but a physical and mental disease.
- Besides the “physical allergy” and “mental obsession,” AA would come to understand the disease in a third dimension. What is this? – The spiritual.
- From what two men did AA derive this understanding? – From Carl Jung, a psychiatrist, and William James, a psychologist and philosopher. Cross-reference: “The Doctor’s Opinion,” p. XXV and XXXI; “A Vision for You,” p. 162; “Our Southern Friend,” p. 213.
P8
- L14-16: “Then came the insidious insanity of that first drink, and on Armistice Day 1934, I was off again.” Armistice Day signals the end of which war? – WWI.
- What national holiday celebrates that event, and when? – Veteran’s Day, November 11.Cross-reference: “Our Southern Friend,” p. 210, L29-317.
- LL25-26: "Near the end of that bleak November, I sat drinking in my kitchen." Where was this kitchen? – In Lois and Bill's apartment in Brooklyn Heights, Brooklyn, NY
- LL32-33: "The cheery voice of an old school friend." Who was this friend? – Ebby T.
- Where did they go to school together? – In Vermont.
- Where was Ebby originally from? – Albany, NY
P9
- L28: Ebby told Bill “how two men had appeared in court, persuading the judge to suspend his commitment.” Who were these
men? – Rowland H. and Cebra G., of the Oxford Group. Cebra later joined AA, but Rowland never did
Cross-reference: See below, Chapter 2: There Is a Solution, P26, L38.
P10
- L24-26: “How could there be so much of precise and immutable law, what had been so freely given me.” Bill is being prescient here. A scientific movement developed later in the 20th century based on the same intuition that the fine tuning of the laws of nature seemed to suggest the existence of a creator God. What is the name of this movement? -Intelligent Design.
- What Bible passage refers to the same perception? – "The heavens declare the glory of God," Psalm 19:1
P11
- L31-32: “In one western city and its environs,” says Bill, AA had grown to include “one thousand of us and our families." What city is he referring to? – Cleveland, Ohio.
P12
- LL 27-28: “Scales of pride and prejudice fell from my eyes. Similar words are used to describe a spiritual
experience in a subsequent personal story in the Big Book. Which story is this? —“The Man Who Mastered
Fear,” p. 251
- Two of the words bring to mind the title of a famous British novel which was later made into a famous BBC Masterpiece series. What is the title of the novel, and who was its author? –Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen
P13
- LL 3-4: “At the hospital I was separated from alcohol for the last time.” The narrative here suddenly jumps from the kitchen talk
between Bill and Ebby to Bill’s hospitalization. What does “for the last time” seem to suggest? – That Bill drank again after his
kitchen talk with Ebby.
- Is that part of Bill’s story skipped in the Big Book’s narrative? -Yes
- What else is skipped? – a) Bill’s experience at the Oxford Group Mission on east 23rd Street, where Bill goes to “research” what Ebby was up to. He drinks on his way there, but not on his way back home. b) Bill’s spiritual experience at Town’s Hospital.
- Where can we read about this. –In Alcoholics Anonymous Comes of Age: A Brief History of A.A. pp. 59–64
- Why were these parts of the story left out of the Big Book? Two reasons:
a) As regards the Oxford Group, because at the time the OG was involved in a big press-engineered controversy and AA did not
want to be associated too much with it for fear of getting caught up in the controversy and hurting the alcoholic cause (see
PTP123, p. 15).
b) As regard Bill’s spiritual experience, because during the first 6 months Bill spent working with alcoholics, he had emphasized
his sudden spiritual experience at the hospital and alcoholics didn’t seem to identify with him. He did not help a single drunk
stop drinking. With the advice of Dr. Silkworth, this led Bill to change his approach with Dr. Bob when he went to Akron, where
he emphasized instead his own need to talk to another alcoholic to stay sober (see PTP123, pp.). It also led to changes in the 2nd printing of the 1st edition of the Big Book, such as changing the phrase “spiritual experience” to “spiritual awakening” in Step 12 and adding
a Spiritual Experience index to explain what it means, differentiate it from spiritual awakening, and reassure alcoholics about
the whole matter.
- L6-8: “There I humbly offered myself , as I then understood Him, to do with me as He would. I placed myself unreservedly under his care and direction.” What Step is Bill recounting he took here? – Step 3
- LL10-12: “I ruthlessly faced my sins, and became willing to have my new-found Friend take them away. . .” What Steps is he recounting he took here? Steps 4 and 6
- LL14-15: “My schoolmate visited me, and I fully acquainted him with my problems and deficiencies.” What Step is he recounting he took here? – Step 5
- LL15-18: “We Made a list. . . admitting my wrongs.” What Step is he recounting he took here? – Step 8.
- LL 11-14: “I felt lifted up . . . God comes to most men gradually, but his impact on me was sudden and profound.” What is Bill alluding to here? – His “white light” spiritual experience at Towns Hospital, where apparently he had an epiphany and sensed the presence of God.
- LL15-16: “For a moment I was alarmed, and called my friend, the doctor.” Who is Bill referring to here? Dr. Silkworth, the Director of Towns Hospital.
P14
- L25: ". . .what had been so freely given me. L25: “. . . what is the allusion to here? – The Bible, Matthew 10:8, the sending out of the Apostles to heal others as they themselves had been healed: “Freely you have received, freely give. ”Cross-reference: This is the first of three allusions to this passage in the BB. See below: “There’s a Solution,” p. 19, L18-19, and “A Vision for You,” p. 164, L23-24. There are also 3 allusions in the 12&12: p. 10, L28-29; p. 133, L1-2; and p. 166, L39.
P16
- L6-7: Among the “strenuous, comic, and tragic” struggles of early AAs is the story of “One poor chap” who “committed suicide in my home.” – The name of this man? – Bill C., a lawyer and gambler who, while a guest of Bill and Lois, was surreptitiously selling off their clothes to finance his drinking and gambling.
- What home is Bill referring to? – Their apartment at 182 Clinton Street in Brooklyn Heights, NYC.
- LL14: “Most of us feel we need look no further for Utopia.” Who wrote the first work (a novel) titled Utopia? – Thomas More
- Who was he? – A 16th century English lawyer and philosopher
- How is he known in the Catholic Church? – As St. Thomas Moore
- What does Utopia stand for? – An ideal place to live
- What does the word actually mean? – “No place” (Greek nos, no + topos, place)
- What is the connection to alcoholics?– According to Tradition 6 in the 12&12, “alcoholics are bankrupt idealists” (p.156), always in search of a ideal that doesn’t exist. Once we join AA, we don’t have to search anymore. We are home.
- “Me and Bobby McGee,” a Janice Joplin song some of us got wasted to back in the day has a line which alludes to the utopian search. What is that line? – “He’s lookin’ for a home and I hope he finds it”
- Asterisk: “In 2001, AA is composed of over 100,000 groups.” How many groups were there as of the publication of the BB’s 3rd edition in 1983, according to a corresponding note for that edition? – 50,000 groups.
To hear Bill W. tell his story and that of AA, see Bill W. – Fourth International AA Convention, 1965, Toronto.
To hear Ebby T.'s story, see Ebby Thatcher, San Jose CA, 3-4-61.