Roman Numerals Chapters 1–11 Appendices Personal Stories: Personal Stories:
4th Edition ES&H
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1. LL 3-4: “At the hospital I was separated from alcohol for the last time.” The narrative here suddenly jumps from the kitchen talk
between Bill and Ebby to Bill’s hospitalization. What does “for the last time” seem to suggest? – That Bill drank again after his
kitchen talk with Ebby.
2. Is that part of Bill’s story skipped in the Big Book’s narrative? -Yes
3. What else is skipped? – a) Bill’s experience at the Oxford Group Mission on east 23rd Street, where Bill goes to “research” what
Ebby was up to. He drinks on his way there, but not on his way back home. b) Bill’s spiritual experience at Town’s Hospital.
4. Where can we read about this. –In Alcoholics Anonymous Comes of Age: A Brief History of A.A. pp. 59–64
5. Why were these parts of the story left out of the Big Book? Two reasons:
a) As regards the Oxford Group, because at the time the OG was involved in a big press-engineered controversy and AA did not
want to be associated too much with it for fear of getting caught up in the controversy and hurting the alcoholic cause (see
PTP123, p. 15).
b) As regard Bill’s spiritual experience, because during the first 6 months Bill spent working with alcoholics, he had emphasized
his sudden spiritual experience at the hospital and alcoholics didn’t seem to identify with him. He did not help a single drunk
stop drinking. With the advice of Dr. Silkworth, this led Bill to change his approach with Dr. Bob when he went to Akron, where
he emphasized instead his own need to talk to another alcoholic to stay sober (see PTP123, pp.). It also led to changes in the
2nd edition of the Big Book, such as changing the phrase “spiritual experience” to “spiritual awakening” in Step 12 and adding
a Spiritual Experience index to explain what it means, differentiate it from spiritual awakening, and reassure alcoholics about
the whole matter.
6. L6-8: “There I humbly offered myself , as I then understood Him, to do with me as He would. I placed myself unreservedly
under his care and direction.” What Step is Bill recounting he took here? – Step 3
7. LL10-12: “I ruthlessly faced my sins, and became willing to have my new-found Friend take them away. . .” What Steps is he
recounting he took here? Steps 4 and 6
8. LL14-15: “My schoolmate visited me, and I fully acquainted him with my problems and deficiencies.” What Step is he
recounting he took here? – Step 5
9. LL15-18: “We Made a list. . . admitting my wrongs.” What Step is he recounting he took here? – Step 8.
10. LL 11-14: “I felt lifted up . . . God comes to most men gradually, but his impact on me was sudden and profound.” What is Bill
alluding to here? – His “white light” spiritual experience at Towns Hospital, where apparently he had an epiphany and sensed the presence of God.
11. LL15-16: “For a moment I was alarmed, and called my friend, the doctor.” Who is Bill referring to here? Dr. Silkworth,
the Director of Towns Hospital.
To hear Bill W. tell his story and that of AA, see Bill W. – Fourth International AA Convention, 1965, Toronto.
To hear Ebby T.'s story, see Ebby Thatcher, San Jose CA, 3-4-61.